Talk about a downer day.
The sky was heavy and gray yesterday. Enormous clouds moving quickly, dense with rain, colors of grays and blues and black and white. Some wind.
I got up yesterday morning and nothing felt right. I would have rather pinched my husband than look at him. It had very little to do with him and everything to do with me. It felt like my kids were tap dancing on my very last shredded tiny stringy nerve. I was overly emotional and overly sensitive. No it wasn't PMS or my period. It was just ME.
I was exhausted from burning the candle at both ends. And on top of all that, the day was spitty and dreary and cool. It's amazing how the weather can influence your mood. If it had been sunny, I would've still be bitchy but at least I could throw on the sprinkler or haul kids to the beach for a couple hours.
So how could I improve this?
Sleep.
TLC.
(Giant pause. - I'm thinking.)
Medication. (kidding)
Oh, or a run.
Some days I think I have to allow myself to wallow, just for a bit. I try to think of my ups and downs like waves. If I am in a low for a day or two (or sometime a few days) I must remember that 'This too shall pass.' I know this about me: I just have to ride the wave, knowing that the natural progression of being low is to come back up. Nothing stays low forever. It is just the way things are. It might feel like I'll never feel happy or sane again, but I know I will. So, if I need to ride it out and be a little depressive, cranky and moody I KNOW inherently that tomorrow things will look better.
I ALWAYS tell my children when they are overtired, teary and worried at bedtime (cause that's when children get that way). "You are just really tired. Your body is begging for rest. You need to close your eyes and rest your body. THINGS ALWAYS LOOK BETTER IN THE MORNING."
And do you know? They always do.
I've been reading a copy of Anthony Robbin's 'Awaken the Giant Within'. It is a really motivating and positive book filled with techniques for making change and implementing action within your life. It is a long read (519 pages) but it is filled with exercises and ideas that are BRILLIANT. Some parts I have had to read a couple of times, but generally it has made a significant impact on my choices and my thoughts.
Anthony Robbins writes: 'No matter what happens in your life, you've got to be able to believe, 'This too shall pass,' and that if you keep persisting, you'll find a way.'
Big stuff or little stuff.
So, on that note and this down day, in that tiny sentence I find my wave up.
" It is the mind that maketh good of ill, that maketh wretch or happy, rich or poor." - Edmund Spenser
The sky was heavy and gray yesterday. Enormous clouds moving quickly, dense with rain, colors of grays and blues and black and white. Some wind.
I got up yesterday morning and nothing felt right. I would have rather pinched my husband than look at him. It had very little to do with him and everything to do with me. It felt like my kids were tap dancing on my very last shredded tiny stringy nerve. I was overly emotional and overly sensitive. No it wasn't PMS or my period. It was just ME.
I was exhausted from burning the candle at both ends. And on top of all that, the day was spitty and dreary and cool. It's amazing how the weather can influence your mood. If it had been sunny, I would've still be bitchy but at least I could throw on the sprinkler or haul kids to the beach for a couple hours.
So how could I improve this?
Sleep.
TLC.
(Giant pause. - I'm thinking.)
Medication. (kidding)
Oh, or a run.
Some days I think I have to allow myself to wallow, just for a bit. I try to think of my ups and downs like waves. If I am in a low for a day or two (or sometime a few days) I must remember that 'This too shall pass.' I know this about me: I just have to ride the wave, knowing that the natural progression of being low is to come back up. Nothing stays low forever. It is just the way things are. It might feel like I'll never feel happy or sane again, but I know I will. So, if I need to ride it out and be a little depressive, cranky and moody I KNOW inherently that tomorrow things will look better.
I ALWAYS tell my children when they are overtired, teary and worried at bedtime (cause that's when children get that way). "You are just really tired. Your body is begging for rest. You need to close your eyes and rest your body. THINGS ALWAYS LOOK BETTER IN THE MORNING."
And do you know? They always do.
I've been reading a copy of Anthony Robbin's 'Awaken the Giant Within'. It is a really motivating and positive book filled with techniques for making change and implementing action within your life. It is a long read (519 pages) but it is filled with exercises and ideas that are BRILLIANT. Some parts I have had to read a couple of times, but generally it has made a significant impact on my choices and my thoughts.
Anthony Robbins writes: 'No matter what happens in your life, you've got to be able to believe, 'This too shall pass,' and that if you keep persisting, you'll find a way.'
Big stuff or little stuff.
So, on that note and this down day, in that tiny sentence I find my wave up.
" It is the mind that maketh good of ill, that maketh wretch or happy, rich or poor." - Edmund Spenser